Our Worlds Should Collide.

tumblr.

2010-02-10T00:10:00.000-06:00

so i made a tumblr account!!

marceyms.tumblr.com

[it will probably change in the near future!]

-mms

school.

2010-02-02T23:53:00.002-06:00

takes up so much time.

well, i know it is like a full time job, but i am also in the midst of a end-of-teen crisis.

i feel like i have so much to do, but yet i can never think of anything to do.

i want to blog more.

i want to photograph more.

i want to dance more.

i want to work out more.

i want to get into the music industry.

i really have no idea what i want.

i need comfort.

i need hope.

i need sleep.

i need time.

i just need to stop thinking for a while.

weirdthoughts.

2010-01-27T08:26:00.003-06:00

on sunday morning, at like 4 a.m., I came home in one of the weirdest moods. I was feeling fine until I pulled up to my dad's house, and the moment I walked in the door things just went downhill from there. I got really annoyed and felt shaky. Since then, I have an idea as to way I started feeling that way, but at the time I was confused because the mood lasted with me even after I woke up Sunday. During the first happenings of it sunday at 4 in the morning, I just started typing, like I normally do when I get super annoyed, without caring what I said. I thought about posting it on here because some of the things I wrote about I feel strongly towards, but I could have said them in a little bit of a different manner than how I did. I am glad I have decided to hold off putting it on here because now I can write it out more professionally and not sound like a drunk rambling on about stupid issues. [which, by the way, I was not drunk, and it is not a stupid issue; it just kinda sounds that way at the moment!]

I will post that at a later time. Right now I want to tell about a fabulous experience I will soon get to have. My high school Student Council sponsor, whom I've known for four years now, asked me yesterday to be the photographer at her sister's wedding in February! I am honored and stoked to get the opportunity to take the pictures at such a meaningful event in a person's life. Granted, I am also extremely nervous; a million thoughts have raced through my mind like what if none of the pictures come out good. I know, thoughts like that are natural, and I just have to learn to face my fears. I was talking to my older sister about it, and she suggested that I practice just taking pictures of people in crowds, and focus on just two subjects.

If you have any advice, I am very willing to here it!

Now, I'm off to classes!

-mms

christmasbreak!

2010-01-05T00:39:00.002-06:00

these weeks have been pretty amazing.

-camping with frank, colin, and jackson. i got some amazing pictures from that trip!

-nick's birthday party. happy 19th!

-sandy's party: so you think you can dance Barbara!

-christmas was great! spent it at my dad's.

-stu-co after christmas party, got to see some the funniest people ever! i heart them all!

-bowling with some besties was a wonderful day! it slushed a little! p.s. i suck a bowling!

-road trip to austin with kinzey and bri was fab! they are two amazing people!

-new year's eve was a blast for the most part!

-kinzey leaving, such a sad day. i have been hanging out with her almost everyday this break, and now she is back in great lakes and doesn't know when she will be back...

and, of course, hanging with friends in between!!

i truly do realized how blessed i am, even though sometimes i don't believe i am.

-mms :]

Music 2009

2009-12-30T14:42:00.005-06:00

[so i know this is not the blog i promised would be next, and i promise that blog will be on here soon!]

2009 sure has been a fun year.

During the first half of the year I was into music, but not near as addicted as i am now! I had known about some bands but never really paid any attention to them.

This summer really changed all that. I don't know how it happened, but i just really started getting into the music scene. I love it now. I wish I could get a job in it, but that's just a dream.

So, here now, at the end of 2009, are the bands that I have come to adore their music.

(random order)

the academy is...

adele

all time low

the almost

backseat goodbye

OneRepublic

he is we

Never Shout Never!

Copeland

The Downlown Fiction

We The Kings

The Ready Set

Boys Like Girls

Cobra Starship

A Rocket to the Moon

Romance on a Rocketship

Taylor Swift

Glee Cast!

castledoor

chase coy

city and colour

the maine

mayday parade

daylight tremor

every avenue

everyday sunday

floral terrace

taylor swift

the fray

goot

jack's mannequin

jillian edwards

kelsey montanez

morgan laurence

my favorite highway

owl city

phone calls from home

sailing in the clouds

sanctus real

secondhand serenade

stephen barnes

the summer set

sunset shootout

vanessa rose

we shot the moon

the beatles

and here are some of the websites I get my addiction fulfilled [dang, that sounds bad!]:

strikegently.com

purevolume.com

myspace.com

little blog while i can't sleep.

2009-12-29T02:41:00.003-06:00

happy thanksgiving/merry christmas.

i haven't posted in a while!

so, this semester is over. done. finished.

i am just glad i survived.

i think more things went through my mind than ever before. so many mixed emotions.

i realize i have much to catch you up on! i will do that when it is not almost three in the morning and when my eyes can see what i am typing!

oh! and i realized i actually had comments on my posts, and i thought i was cool and all, and then i realized, "oh, it's probably just my mom."

so mom, if those are your comments you should let me know somehow!! kthanks!

ok...so on the agenda for next post:

-thisoneboy.

-christmasbreakactivities.

-mysemestervideo.

lifeaftercollege.

2009-11-02T17:11:00.002-06:00

all I want is to be happy.

is that so much to ask for.

I know exactly what I want to do, but getting there....there really is no path.

I wrote this letter to any band members that were willing to read it. I was hoping for some sort of response, but none yet...and probably never. well I tried, and fail, and now I have almost no hope.

dear anyone willing to read this,
This has nothing to do with being a huge fan or how much I love y'all. This is a for real question that I need/ would really love an answer, or just advise, to.
ok, so here's the short background: I am a college freshman. I enjoy the music/entertainment industry even though i do not play an instrument or sing or officially act. I also enjoy dealing with money (not like in a greedy way or anything, but like accounting/ bookkeeping).
now here is the dilemma: I have no idea what I should major in. Accounting has a much higher rate of employment than marketing does (marketing is what I think I would do if I was to somehow go into the music/entertainment industry). but I would much rather be interacting with real people rather than fake business people.
Anyway, that's beside the point/ question i am trying to ask.
In today's world how probable is it to get a job as a music/ entertainment marketer? and if I ended up majoring in accounting, is it possible to become some type accountant/ bookkeeper/ record keeper/ whatever it is called for a band or something of the sort, like something in the music/ entertainment field?
Am I making any sense whatsoever? I sure hope so. This is just the tip of the iceberg (that's so cliche) of the issue going on in my head, but if you could help out that would be wonderful. I figured asking some one with first hand experience in the music would be a smart idea!

-mms.

best.night.ever.

2009-11-02T00:33:00.010-06:00

i know i have not really blogged in a while. and i guess it doesn't really matter since nobody reads these, so i am pretty much just writing to myself!

Friday. October. 30. 2009.

remember the date.

I sure will!

it was just an all around grand day!!!

I got up at usually time, but I didn't have my 10:00 class because it's only monday/wednesdays. so I had a lot of time before my 11:15 class. And man, I got three loads of laundry done, filled up on gas, went to the store, started packing for austin, but forgot to eat breakfast!

then time for class...which i had a test in; that was pretty much the only sad part of the day! my 12:20 class let out early though, which was the best thing ever because I needed to finish packing for austin and then drive down there!

so I was getting ready and all, then got hungry. so i got food, and even the food was good that day! it was exciting! and the weather was beautiful because it wasn't too cold but wasn't hot!

so I was off to austin for this amazing concert that Sarai bought tickets for! and on the way, i found out about an acoustic show outside a mall! which made my day even better! The drive down there was good! nothing too dramatic! I met Sarai at her dorm, and we hung out there a bit, then drove to the mall to see All Time Low's acoustic show! it was great!!!!!!! they did a signing and picture after it!!

[the only thing i really regret is, is that I didn't have the courage to strike up a conversation or anything. i was in hugging distance of jack, zack, alex, and rian, but couldn't even look then in the face. yes. I have regrets in my life. i think it is almost impossible to live without them.]

After that wonderful at the acoustic show, me and Sarai drove over the the concert venue, waited in line for at least 45 minutes, and got inside!!! the security guy thought my camera was a professional one and almost didn't let me take it in. I got a little nervous! but all was well because they let me in! once we got in we had at pretty good spot, but throughout the night got pushed to the middle/back area. we waited inside for another what seemed like forever, but was really only like an hour.

the Friday Night Boys opened the show. they were ok. i had heard of them but never really listened to their music! apparently people knew of them though! then more time went by and Hey Monday came out and played!!! She is an amazing singer, and i love her songs!

so then more time pasted,

and We The Kings finally came out!!!!!!

holy geez. I love him! great singer and performer and person [well i don't really know him in person, but i'm sure he is because he's a ginger!] and all around amazing! i wish he was at the acoustic thing too, but he wasn't. it's ok though because after the concert I bought a we the kings shirt. i love it sooo super much! people started getting real crazy though. there was pretty much no personal space. but I got over it, I guess!! Then yet again, more time pasted as we were waiting for All Time Low get their set ready, and by that time we were way further back than we started. It was kinda sad that no one really had respect for anybody else.

the opening of All Time Low's show was amazing!!! they played Lost in Stereo, which is an amazing song!!! ahhh!! i loved it!!! the crowd started going crazy, but it was loads of fun! Alex is such an amazing singer, and they really know how to put on a good show!

ahhh....what a grand night!!!! after the concert me and sarai went to eat, and I felt so gross with sweat, but it was so worth it! I might have damaged my ear drum though because my ears have been ringing for the past three days!

so yay!! that was an amazing day! everything went great! so why do I keep thinking about all the things I wish I would've done. why are my regrets ruling over all my other thoughts.

-mms.

p.s. more pictures are viewable on facebook.com/marcey.smith

roomies!!!

2009-10-01T22:48:00.004-05:00

"my roommate is the best thing since sliced bread!" -quote from just Jordin.

they are amazing, and making me write this! They just wanted a shot out!

We have gone on many fro yo runs, and that has been super duper fun!

Humm....what else have we done...not studied, and watched bon qui qui about a million times and glozell (from youtube).

Elizabeth: loudest laugh ever! she recently got her hair cut and it looks lovely! she has a boyfriend who keeps confusing her and making her sad. She is amazing though and keeps me awake!

Jordin: pretty much our third roommate, and we are pretty much her third roommate! She keeps me awake too! She wants me to go in depth about her, but I don't know what to say right now!!

I am going to finish studying while they go eat! Yeah for peace and quiet!

later gater!

more thoughts.

2009-10-01T00:25:00.003-05:00

so that's two unfinished blogs now.

that relationship thing still bothers me, and I have a feeling it always will. Yeah, i've prayed for answers and help, but being patient is hard. I have waited eighteen years. Is that not long enough? Well for God that is nothing! That is not even a blink of an eye for him.

these are the words from my computer journal. I felt that I should just publish them somewhere, but i wasn't quite sure. but then i remembered about this thing:

"this world is tough on every aspect of our lives. we can't live one day without thinking what the world has to say about our actions or hearing back from the world what she thinks about what we do, say, wear, act like, look like, smell like, eat, the list could go on.

so i sure haven't journaled in a while. I am at baylor now! five weeks of school. It is been pretty crazy. this experience i hope and pray with mold me and change me into a smarter, wiser person. I have been going through some tough times in my mind. It like to wander a lot. And if i give it enough time it starts to make me a little depressed. When i give my mind time it automatically starts to think about a guy, and the fact that i have never had a boyfriend. I have started falling for someone a little more than planned: ...

I just don't know how to talk, act, present myself in front of guys.

The world is a beat down. I am tired of having to be a somebody; yeah i want to make it well in the world but ugh. i don't know what i am trying to say.

I just hate all the pressure of the world over my shoulder. people always there to say something about whatever they want to and they don't care about feelings or whom they impact. yeah, i know that i have not always been the nicest person in the world; i know, and will admit it, that i have said some rude things, but I at least acknowledge my wrong doing and say sorry [most of the time]. and sometimes we can say something and not even know they have deeply impacted somebody, for good or for bad. I might of done that too, but I have no idea. Almost everybody has an impact on someone."

and that is where i left off. My mind went blank.

This song just came on and it is quite amazing!

"I wish you were more convincing

or I wish i were gullible

Is there a point that i'm missing

or is it just too subtle?"

gullible by jillian edwards.

relationships.

2009-09-01T11:19:00.003-05:00

sorry i did not really finish my previous blog. i was tired and really didn't feel like writing.

last night while laying in bed many thoughts were going through my head. one of them was about relationships and how people pair up. it is so mind boggling to me, i don't know why. but because i live in the 21st century, i have difficulties relating to people. on tv we always see singles, but very rarely we see cute romantic movies about love at first sight. Even food products come out in singles now.

[i need to finish my leadership essay; i will finish this later!]

first week complete.

2009-08-29T22:15:00.002-05:00

well the first week has come to an end.

it was quite an exciting first week, I guess you could say. I'm glad that it's over.

Me and the roomie have been getting along great!! Our goal is to get a life at some point! [because we have been bums this week, and not gotten out much!]

The work load has been okay for now. I do have work to do this weekend that I should be doing right now!! I'm enjoying Baylor so far! I haven't really done much yet, but I bet when I do, it will be great!

success.

2009-08-24T18:21:00.002-05:00

first day of classes is over!! [well until tomorrow's classes!]

today's classes were great!

chapel came first and that pretty fun! I think I will find it enjoyable, I hope. There are quite a few people in there, so it is a little crazy!

next was eco/business history. For some ready I think I might enjoy that class. Well I sure hope I do! There is a lot of reading to do though, and I am not very good at that. But the prof has provided us with his lecture notes and study questions for a guided reading type thing!

third, I had my MIS class. Goodness, I am not really looking forward to that class. My view of it right now is that it is going to be very boring. I was trying to do my reading homework for it and I fell asleep. Right now it is just the dry, basic material that explains what all a computer is and all that internet stuff that we have grown up with but just not have known the exact name for it!

I'm really hoping that nothing will be too hard; I know it's collage and all, but my brain doesn't like to hurt! I am even more nervous about tomorrow because I have Business calculus first thing in the morning [9:30]. boo :[

I think I second guess myself a lot because right now I am thinking about how I really don't remember much from last year math. Maybe I should look over the book, just to get acquainted with the material again. I also should be doing my reading for wednesday's class. My MIS class already has us reading two chapters, and those aren't small chapters...booo... :\

tonight we have meeting with our mentor groups for the LEAD program! That shall be fun I hope!

-mms :]

first day jitters.

2009-08-23T23:00:00.003-05:00

good evening!!

tomorrow is my first day of school at baylor university! I am quite excited about it! I have been studying the map and walked around campus today to make sure I know where i am going tomorrow. My schedule tomorrow is pretty easy! First class at 10:10, not too far from my dorm, and then the next class is in a building not too far from my first class, then the third class is in the same building as the second, so it all works out well! yeah for happiness!

My first few days here at Baylor have been pretty grand; welcome week stuff was interesting, but mostly fun. Nothing too bad, which is always great!

My stomach has been hurting a little bit, and I don't know if it is something I ate or my nerves kicking in. Either way, it needs to stop because it is just no fun. :\

Well, thanks for reading the update! Going to eat breakfast in the morning; hopefully it's good!

-mms :]

so many questions.

2009-08-21T15:31:00.006-05:00

So mom keeps asking me all these questions, so i figured I might as well answer them for everyone. [not like anyone reads this is anyway!]

here is her exact text message to me: "Food? Good? Sleep well? Find everything? Make friends? Like having roommate? Nervous about classes? Excited about all the activities?"

so here are my answers:

"Food?" great!

"Good?" i don't know if this is asking if the food is good or if i am good, but either way the answer is yes.

"Sleep well?" heck yes, my bed is so soft. I absolutely love it! It took me a little time to get to sleep last night one] because i took an hour long nap during the day, and two] because i laid down in bed, got all cozy, then the phone rings. So i was talking on the phone for thirty more minutes. :]

"Find everything?" yeah, for the most part. GoogleMaps likes to lie to me sometimes, [well more like most of the time] but I think i got it figured out.

"Make friends?" not any really close friends yet, but that takes time. Just some new acquaintances and that's it. I did run into one of my friends from Line Camp, and hopefully we will be able to catch up and be friends.

"Like having roommate?" the better question is do i have a choice? but i guess even if i did, i would chose to have one. so, yes, i like having a roommate so i am not so lonely, but we don't talk at all while we are in here, so it is like not having one, just with the awkwardness of another person in the room.

"Nervous about classes?" uhh...duh. who isn't? Of course I am. I got an e-mail from a professor about his syllabus and class goals he posted on Blackboard. My first time on Blackboard!! not that exciting, but oh well! My printer is not working so I can't print out the syllabus quite yet. I need to find the print shop, so I can go print it.

"Excited about all the activities?" for welcome week? not really. I am just ready for classes to start. I'm not really in the mood for anything social right now, so it is just like whatever right now. I'm sure things will change soon, well i hope. There is so many activities, and i really don't know if i am going to get involved in them just yet. I will have to look for the ones i am really interested in.

So enough with the questionaries. Life is fine right now. It is just going to take some time to get used to the new setting. A lot of walking is to be done in the new future. I know my legs are going to be sore soon. Nothing else really exciting to say. I'm just super bored in my room waiting for 4:30 to roll around, which is when i will get ready to go eat dinner at a professor's house with my University 1000 group. fun times.

-mms :\

movingday.

2009-08-19T05:41:00.000-05:00

Today I move away to Waco!! I am super excited because I also get to meet my roommate and all that jazz! I am so nervous about today because now it's like "Oh crap, it is finally here." I start school on Monday. Why did the summer go so fast. Well actually it went at a good pace! I am happy to start school again, but I was also enjoying not having school. Too bad I am not a lazy bum, and I actually want to get a good job....whyyyy...I liked being able to sleep in and do whatever I want. oh wait, I can do that in college too!! but I won't!!!

Life is going to be grand; I hope! Baylor is an amazing place, and quite beautiful! It makes me excited!

oh!! last night I went for a walk because the sky was so beautiful! It is always at its best before a storm! I took many pictures of the wonderful clouds! [i'll have to upload them later!] I love breezy walks to the park; they are so relaxing.

well, I have a long road ahead of me, so I should get off and start my journey! It's really only two hours, so it's not even that bad but oh well! It is still two hours in the car with nothing to do except look at the fields and clouds!

I love you, people back home and away at college!!!! "Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting."

See you later garland! hello Waco!!!

-mms :]

goodmorning.

2009-08-18T10:29:00.000-05:00

well hello there. so i am moving in less than 24 hours. it is about to hit me; I can feel it! I woke up realizing it. Now I just need to pack! My room is a mess with dorm stuff! I really don't like packing; it is quite hard.

I don't really know what else to say, other than I will miss everyone. I hung out with Frank, Jake, and Sarai yesterday. Those are the ones I think I will miss the most. I used to see them everyday at school, and we had such fun times. It is all over now. All four of us are going our separate ways. We will reunite someday; I'm sure! [well I hope!]

Okay, now I seriously have to do pack, and eat something because I am starving!!

-mms :]

will it work?

2009-08-08T21:47:00.000-05:00

so here is my idea!

video blogs, as well as regular blogs too!!

I am going to attach my video, and see what happens!! :]

I made this video today, and i got to thinking about how i have not blogged in a while! Then "Click" i had an idea to put the video on my blog!! So here i am...waiting for the video to load! It is almost done, and i am getting quite excited!! I still have the other half of the video to load. I guess i could have merged them together in iMovie, but i did not feel like going through all that trouble!!

oh...while i am waiting i shall add a recent picture of me!!

wahhhh....this is taking forever, and i am not a very patient person... :\

i really don't have anything left to say! i could tell you all the exciting things that have happened this summer, but you would probably get bored super quick! Plus this is supposed to be able life at Baylor and what not! well sorta!

woohoo!! all done! :]

long time no talk!!

2009-08-08T21:35:00.001-05:00

heyheyhey!!

so it certainly has been quite some time since i have blogged on here!!

mucho has happened during this summer. I just had a wonderful idea. It might not work so I am not going to say anything about it yet!!

Well i will say that this is going to be my blog from baylor, which i move to in 11 days; yeah that's right...ELEVEN days!!! woohoo....super exciting!!! :]

anyway, I have been dorm shopping, and it is quite hard with little money! I have one cup, one fork, one spoon, one knife, two plates, and two bowls to use as kitchen supplies! I've started to do some packing and realized it is going to be harder than i thought because i really have a lot of stuff. I have no idea how this is going to work, but i guess i have to figure it out somehow!!

well, i really have nothing else to say right now!

thanks for reading the update! :]

thisswineflu.

2009-04-29T22:04:00.000-05:00

ummm...so I just thought it might be a good idea to write down important events in america, so you know...when I get older I can look back and remember the good, the bad, and the ugly. [that's so cliche!]

so right now there is this thing going on called the swine flu. I don't know much about it because I really don't pay attention to the news very often. [it is probably about time I do!] So this swine flu has apparently come from mexico and already killed one person...well it was a baby. in Houston. School districts are closing down, and things are getting serious. I am that type of person that does not really take anything on the news serious, but sometimes I have to remember that there is a world outside of my room, my school, my community of friends. I forget about it sometimes, although I will never forget about New York, Paris or anywhere in Europe. [I so wish to travel over there. but I should probably figure out what is going on here before I embark on a world adventure.]

anyways....so yeah. that's what's going on! pretty exciting. It is also President Obama's 100th day in office. He had a big speech thing on all the main channels...except for Fox 4. They did not air it. Instead they aired a show called "Lie to me." haha..this is a wee bit hilarious!

but instead of watching the speech I watched America's Next Top Model because that show is super silly and fun to watch! Fo got kicked off...

this week has been TAKS week in school. So today I did not go to school since I do not have to take TAKS!! woohoo!! but I have to go tomorrow because I have a fourth period class....sad but ok!

well I am going to stop and go to bed!

love you lots world!

new start.

2009-04-11T22:10:00.000-05:00

well hello!

welcome to blogger.com con marcey.

sweetness. so i really have nothing to say right now. just that life is moving...slowly but surely. i am a senior in high school and just waiting for that special day....[in my case june 6]. graduation.

well..that's about it for now. i was just giving myself a welcoming!

peace.